fouzia wants to live

her name is fouzia, she is a woman, she has 37 years, she is from Constantine, one of the oldest city of Algeria, she has cancer disease from seven years, she is poor, she has a poor mother, all her revenue is a small wage, the journalist did not write about the father, perhaps he is dead, they live in a small apartment in a crowded building, a crowed city, she has no money to buy drugs, the hospital did not accepted her, they rejected her, her mother tried to sue them, no one care, the justice don't care,the general attorney don't care , neighbors don't care, she is just another ill poor Algerian, they care about other people. 

she has a cancer near her neck, he already get all her shoulders, she has worms who eat her body, the mum can't do anything to stop the worms, she has no medicine, she use pesticides to kill them, so they go back to fouzia shoulders, she is so pained that she kick her head against the wall, she cries, she has a lot of tears, she flowed something like a green liquid. when the journalist asked her to show her body, she did not accepted, she is shy, she don't want to be seen naked.

sometimes, the mother come to her room, and found it full of worms, she can't support the scene, she fell down.

i hope, they help her, after the newspapers has published her story. in this country it's hard to be a poor, it is hard to be a woman, it's hard to be sick, but if you are a poor sick woman, you have no luck

a very deceiving independence day

yes i am deceived and angry, not sad, her father told mine, no, i don't know the view of the girl, I don't know what she thinks about me, she is always in her home, as it is summer, i don't know if she knew another guy, or even if she need to know me more to decide. or if she wants to continue her post-graduation studies.

i just spoke to her one time, a three months ago for just five minutes, it was the first time i saw her, what's was a crazy scene, i told her that I'll ask for her hand( i am not sure if it's correct in English), and if she was interested, she told me, i should see her father and i don't try to speak to her again,she is a good girl, she cares about her reputation, she don't risk to be seen by her relatives speaking to a stranger, the university where she studies is near my town, so all students know each others , it was my first “dates” with her, perhaps the last, but it was enough for me ( apparently it was not the case for her)to feel that something good can be reached between us.

i suppose, people with others cultural background, just say, what the hell with those guys who want to engage without knowing their partners, but unfortunately it is just like that, i live in a country side, people are very conservative, girls don't walk in the street, it is not granted at all to “access” them, you can't simply go to her and say “ i need to talk to you”,

our theory is that, if the girl is from a good family, and if the people who study with her, the neighbors,your mum which know her mum, told you, she is a good one, then you don't need to know her personally, love come after the marriage, perhaps it sounds weird for you, but it works, Ok not all the time, but statically speaking, the divorce in the case of this traditional way is very low.

i think basically it was my fault, i was in a hurry, i have perhaps “the near 30 years syndrome”, in my country the average age of marriage for men is thirty, so when we approach that limits, we become like mad, searching for the sweetheart that will spend the rest of life together. and most of the time, in lieu, of searching for love, we end as seeking only the marriage.

and about the title, yesterday the fifth of July was our independence day, 45 years ago we got our freedom, from the French occupation. but with the social situation we have, people here don't care about this day, it is just another boring day.